Geeks, Gleeks and bloggers

Here we are at blog 4 and now for a bit of realism...... still surprised daily by the view from the mirror as during my youth when I went for the dark and mysterious personality choice now I don't always get why people avoid me or move away!  Reality check, clearly I was pretty good at giving out the vibe of unapproachable and it worked.  So I shouldn't moan after all as I have achieved at least one thing I set out to in my 35 years!  Not too sure if I am making much sense as sat here half cut but when you take heed of your life after watching Twlight surely something isn't quite right in the mix anyway!.....

Funny really we make these life choices and we adapt our lives accordingly.  You are the one who is good at sports, she is with the 'incrowd', he is very intelligent so therefore clearly a geek.  Now we are at the point where everything geek is fashionable they are on our tv daily, we adore them and we laugh, oh how we laugh in the nicest of nice way possible of course, not like back in third grade.  But looking back to a time in the not too distant past when they were pushed around so much they resorted to taking a gun in to resolve the matter.  Now it would appear we have made light of all the years of abuse and turned it into an alternative fashion statement so it is acceptable we love you now move along!  I salute this change and I am glad things have finally turned around for the better even though they were always laughing at the tail end anyway through the success which would carry them through life.

But what for the once Goth now Emo? that was an interesting life choice....... the sports lot well they still have their sports.  The Geeks their books and success.  The cheerleader, she has her money man but what about us?  Full of teen angst it started somewhere around 'Heathers' worked its way through 'Family of Five', 'My so called life', 'Breakfast Club', St Elmo's Fire', 'Romeo and Juliet' (obviously the modern one, can't remember his name right now) and finally ended up on the back of 'Hollyoaks', granted us Brits don't do the whole teen thing as well as the Americans....... but we watched and held on in there until the death when we realised that maybe just maybe it was time for us to grow up!

But what now? we have our 2.5 children lives and things are great but something is still missing it always will be.  We are left confused as we became so obsessed and full of the big why question and looking into the void that we somehow became lost in the whole thing.  Maybe it was just me who knows but hell I grew up in the 80's and I was full of said, 'Teen Angst', we all felt wronged in some way, yet we never were.  I have no answers but one thing is for sure I feel so much better to have got that off my chest, fuck me now for a bit of sanity...... I hope!